"I want to update my blog with an update of my life. I'll try to leave my emotions out of these. My emotions for her, at least.

Obviously, this past week were our third quarterly examinations. They were the chance for me to regain ground for my failing quizzes. And I never took the chance. I didn't give my all. I gave a lot. But not everything. I'm preoccupied. A million things run through my head at night, and I feel like a reactor on meltdown status.

English. As usual, it was a really Ochave test. Full of facts, memory work and the like. And he was not lying when he said that a lot of literary analysis questions came from Animal Farm. The sentence errors section sucked though. It included word spelling. Gah. I hate word spelling. Considering the fact that my vocabulary is a very limited one. It was a passable test. I hope I did. But I'm pretty sure that someone in our class will get a perfect score on that, knowing how hard they study.

Social Science. It was a long test. A very very long one indeed. And one that not just entailed memory work, but also a whole lot of thinking. It's the kind of test that you need to have an evaluative mind with. Especially when determining the causes and effects, the implications and significances. But the bonus points were easy though, and I hope I got them right. Yet, I'm not really looking forward to a very pretty score. It was, as I said, a very long and very difficult test. And, unlike coffee beans, hot water do not bring out the best in me.

Chemistry. No. I do not want to talk about this test. She's a bitch. She knew we were already failing, yet she gave a test that she knew hardly anyone could pass! The nerve. No wonder she's been absent all week. I guess she doesn't want to face her demons - us. What she doesn't know is that she is our demon. And funnily enough, our demon never showed up.

Christian Living. Yeahhh. This is better news though. I love the way he gives handouts right before exams, which pretty much outline much of what we need to study. Not unlike other subjects, he gives the particular foci of each segment of the test. And he's really right. It's hard to memorize so many things that distinguish what is moral from what is not, and what matters is that we know who or what to consult, should we be faced with a moral crisis. I loved the CL exam. :) Kaya lang, di rin ako umaasa sa mataas na score.

Geometry. Whoo. I didn't expect her quiz to be that way. It was not easy. But it wasn't as difficult as I expected. I didn't study Math for more than an hour on the day before, save for lessons 11.8 - 12.3, which were the lessons I had to print out for the Math Project. I did additional reviewing right before the exam, and it literally flooded my head with all the formulae. I wrote it all over the pages of the test paper so as not to forget. Hahaha! I'm a little worried though. I missed one item!!! I wasn't able to answer it. Damn. Sayang rin yung point na yun! Plus, I think I have a few errors in the problem solving portion. Rarr. Again, I'm not expecting something pretty, but the difference is that I'm worried whether I'm passing or not.

Filipino. I love. Whoo. Dinamdam ko nang todo yung sulatin, hiningi ko pa kay Mrs. Mary-Arr yung paper ko. Wahahaha! I loved her test. It was *almost* like Christian Living - with the Review Questions and highlighting of important details during discussions. Pasaway lang yung delubyo. Akala ko sigaw. Sigwa pala.

Anyway, so much for exams. That's that, I guess. I hope things turn out ok. I need this. I really want to get into a good college. Pray for me, please. I'll pray for you too. I need to get past all this shit. I hate the fact that I'm feeling stressed out enough from what I feel for her. Tapos dadagdag pa ang Third Year load. Rarr.

I went out with the Pasaway peeps (Io, Johnz, Carlo and Mae) today. We went to Megamall (Galle was flooding with Lasallians, when I passed by. Hee.) and Shang-rila. While I met up with John and Mae at Maysilo and we went to Rockwell. I saw Meet the Fockers with Io and Carlo. I love Barbra Streisand. She's so fat in the movie though. I think she intended to anyway. Thank you so much Mae for the picture card, the sugar bears and the free ride home. Hee. You and John make such a great pair. :) [Kelan kaya ako magkakaganung pakiramdam ulit? Hahaha!]

I'm loving Sugarcult now. Whoo. My playlist is all Sugarcult. Memory. Memory (acoustic). She's the Blade. Crying. Stuck in America. Counting Stars (I so love this song). Daddy's Little Defect. Pretty Girl (The Way). Saying Goodbye. And some song named Track 3 - Artist. Hahaha. :)

This weekend. We must make love (Thanks Cams for the idiom!) to our English thesis-research paper and Chemistry ERD\IP this weekend. Nooo.

Attention: Jonathan Feleo, Aldwin Angeles, Miguel Medrano, Justin Tirados!
We have an ERD meeting tomorrow in school :) Early morning, around 10 am, I guess. We need to sit down on this f*cking project. Plus, I have to pick up my books and notebook from Ms. Mia's. Hee! :) I have to face my own demons tomorrow. I hope she'll say yes. (She is not who you think.) :P

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