"I was worried how things would turn out last night, and thank God my worst fears never came to pass. I thought I'd fall for you completely with just one look - and I didn't. I felt great. I can now tell myself without lying that the thought that I mean nothing to you - or at least less than what you meant to me - no longer affects me as it did before. I guess at the end of the day, reality will set in. I've got a whole life ahead of me, and now, it's taught me that you're not the only person who can make me feel the way I did.

I was hoping that we could go back, way back. Before you and him, and have that kind of friendship again. But I guess I can't have everything, and definitely, that would have been one of the things that I'd have to let go of. Unless you'd like to bring some things back. Things will never be the same. But I can make things better, at least for myself. And that's something I have to work on, from now on (hears Barbra Streisand and Judy Gaerland in the background, From now on, happy days are here again, the sun is shining...).

I have to refocus myself on the here and now. I have a life. And that counts for something. I realized it was wrong to consider you the only aspect of my life that mattered, and thankfully, you yourself taught me that it wasn't such. Many things are in my life - happy and sad, lovely and gruesome, deadly and life-inspiring. I'd love to consider you as one of the positives that happened to me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not reducing you to an event, much less an experience, but rather a part of my life. I may not be a part of yours, but you were, and still are of mine. You're a great friend. And a great listener. And maybe, in your own way, an inspiration. :)

Thank you. You made me a better person. You enriched my soul, the way literature does. You strengthened me, the way angels and God do. Thank you.

Oh. By the way, I know you know who you are. Thanks for the jacket. KLEPTO NA TO. :)) Jowk. I'll return it, soon enough, amiga. :)
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