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I don't feel summer. Yeah, it sure is fucking hot. But I know there's gotta be more to the break than the heat. It's just that I feel too damn lazy to get up and do something. I feel wasted, like I woke up from sleeping 24 hours straight because I took too much Valium, when my joints feel like they've been thrown into disuse for ages.
I need to get out of this house - even if I haven't really jailed myself in. I feel like the past schoolyear converted my house into some mad scientist's laboratory - somewhere where sunlight does not shine because the windows are bolted up for the sake of experiments and research that cannot be affected by the golden rays of the sun. It's time to tear down the walls and get out, get out and see the color green again. Refresh my eyes, let the waves of summer come crashing into my mind...
I hope that this summer doesn't turn out like the last - 100% wasted due to sickness. Gah. I need to take better care of myself this time. There's a world out there, and maybe, a part of it is for me to take - if only I could reach it.
Please, I don't want to be alone this summer. :P Be with me.
Okay, okay, let's kill the drama. Here's a recap.
March 12 - Nan's 18th birthday celebration.
March 14 - PE Exams (screwed it up. Haha. Shotgun exams, done in 10 minutes. Whoo.)
March 15 - IP Defense, whoo, SUCCESS! *Hearts* to my groupmates, Miguel, Justin, Jonathan and Aldwin; Absent: Got really sick, brought to the hospital.
March 16-Absent again.
March 17 - Absent again. Went to school to submit the Pahayagan to Ms. Mary-Arr; Stayed a while at the Appreciation Night (Wow, ang kapal ng pagmumukha ko ah.) Saw Ernest, Michael et al, one last time before they would graduate;
Search-In Circle 129: I tried to help out. Someone from Circle 1 visited us, odd coincidence that his son is Gianello Cera, who happens to be a friend. :)
March 18 - Spent nearly the whole day at Search-In; had dinner with DQ in Galle; had dinner-dessert whatever with Mum
March 19 - Spent morning at Search-In; Went to Atsie's graduation; SMALL WORLD - Raymond Lorenzana also graduated on that day. Hahaha! How strange!; Dinner with Atsie; Contemplated on my life; Almost committed suicide. HAHA JUST KIDDING. :D
March 20 - Palm Sunday. Mass; House blessing of Tita Baby's new house; Ballroom dancing show (watched it.)
March 21 - I wanna go to Flashback. I wanna go to Greenhills. Damn.
Now I know what it feels like when you're gone - now's the only time I realized I haven't talked to you in such a long time.
Who are you? When will you be through?"
The clock ticked: 9:42 PM