"help help! hahaha! i just got an application form for the university of the philippines and i read the entire pamphlet. i have no idea what course to go for. believe it or not, i'm actually considering bachelor of FINE ARTS. lol. just kidding :)

my folks want me to take up nursing, but honestly, i don't really feel like it. sure, it's a path to which i'm almost guaranteed to earn right after college. but what i'm more bothered about is that will i enjoy this job? okay, of course, i also have to consider that my parents will not be able to support me for long after college. i want to be a doctor. a surgeon...but as with most dreams, i'll have to forego it for now.

i want to go to ATENEO. but it's too expensive. it's a f*cking P50,000. per semester. ang mahaaaaal. pero gusto kong mag-ATENEO. tapos i want to take up something related to MANAGEMENT, management honors, or interdisciplinary studies, with one management course. whatever. rar. rar. rar. rar. rar. rar. rar. rar. rar. then i want to take up law. hahaha. actually, not really. maybe just get an MBA. (in La Salle Green Hills. hahaha!)

i want to go to UP. pero ayaw ng nanay ko. ang labo nga eh. I WANT TO GO TO UP. i want to take up a pre-med and become a doctor. then when i have enough time, i want to take up a fine arts course. I'M NOT KIDDING. our pianist in the play, she graduated a four-year course first, before taking up (?) bachelor of music, major in piano. sheit. i want to take up ab theatre arts, if ever. wahhhh.

i want to go to DLSU. pero it's 120K per year eh (40K-45K per sem. rar.). hahaha. asa pa ako. $-) pero if ever, i want to take liacomm - advertising arts and advertising management, AND THEN TAKE A FINE ARTS COURSE IN UP. lol. (ayaw ko talagang hindi mag-aral ng fine arts sa UP. HAHAHA.)

/end of part1lament.

hmmm. wednesday. i missed TENNIS AGAIN. hahaha. loserrr. i should have gone though. only that i couldn't. mom was too tired to drive - we were up til late. I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO DRIVE. I WANT MY OWN CAR. I WANT TO DRIVE DRIVE DRIVE DRIVE. (sing it like you're on broadway! HAHAHA)

but i did go to playshop after. whoo. haha. i saw jio javier in shang. play nila is mama mia. NOOD KAYO! hahaha. :) ours will be ONCE UPON A MATTRESS. sarah jessica parker starred in this play on broadway before she went to SATC ata. :) after playshop, bocx, aya, dino, b.a. and i saw starwars. i loved it. whoo. haha. i might see it again soon. yeyness!

thursday... i was late. i was late for review. as usual. (what's new?) i got some kind of wound on my right risk. so i go, "DQ DQ!!! i'm gonna die!" DQ went, "what's new?" hahahahahaha! :)) we were supposed to go to recto to buy some cd's (isang MRT ride lang naman eh.) pero, hindi kami natuloy. ang layo kasi, then magsy didn't want to go that far. so we went to gateway instead, and we saw KINGDOM OF HEAVEN. it was a good movie. haha. kinda reminds you that there's no such thing as an ideal christian. in the end, we will not be judged by how strictly we follow the laws, but by how compassionate, how merciful, how full of hope we have been in this life.

*sigh* (i keep listening to the cast recording of our play. ang ganda kasi ehhh. hahaha.)

friday, I FINALLY played tennis. haha. :) i went to shang extra-early to help cel, gian and jandra make some of the props we're going to need for the play. we had playshop after, and they changed the choreography of the opening. ang hiraaaap. plus ang hirap pa ng mga adjustments dahil iba raw yung stage! gaaaaah. rar.

right after playshop, PARTY time bebeh. haha. went to sunset. i met up with ej tolentino, ej atilano, magsy, jose vasquez, sansan vasquez, mio paredes... i saw sina pael and arvin etc. i saw jonah. i saw sam? (ikaw ba yun? hahaha) fun fun. went home drunk. my mom was furious since i stole the driver. oh what the heck. hahaha. buhay wasted. (pati naman si rina tumakas rin eh. HAHAHA.)

hmmm... saturday, i went to the morning session of review, but i cut class in the afternoon...i went to eastwood with miles and aldwin...i finally got to play bowling after ten years. HAHA. my score was sooo low. !$%^&*()_(*&^%$#$%^&*&(&*%&^#@#! 86 lang putangina. it was definitely worth the cut. haha. i had one of the most enlightening conversations with miles and aldwin in mccafe. oh well oh well.

i'm worried about our class next year. and for the first time, i'm not looking forward to class resumption. i really don't want to run into some of those confounded fucking bastards in our class. haha. it's so sad. i don't give a shit about most of them - then they themselves are the ones impertinent enough to backbite. haha. loser... :P"

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